Back to the Beginning, Part 3

"What is the Word of God?  ‘My Son is pure and holy as Myself.’  And thus did God become the Father of the Son He loves, for thus was he created” (W-276.1.1-3).  

“God keeps His promises; His Son keeps his.  In his creation did his Father say, ‘You are beloved of Me and I of you forever.  Be you perfect as Myself, for you can never be apart from Me.’  His Son remembers not that he replied ‘I will,’ though in that promise he was born” (T-28.VI.6.3-6).

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In this world we hear many voices.  We hear voices from the past, repeating in our heads, telling us that we are not good enough, that we can’t possibly change, that we are just like our dead-beat dad, that we are fat, that we are a sissy, etc.  We hear the voices of advertisers telling us that we will get a mate if we wear a certain cologne or perfume, that we need to drive a certain type of car if we expect to be a success, that we need to have the latest gadget if we want to be “plugged in,” etc.  We hear the voices of politicians and the media.  We hear the voices of our religious leaders.  All of the voices that we hear resound and echo in our minds – telling us who we are and who we should be.

           

All of these many voices are actually one voice – the voice of the ego.  This is the voice of separation.  It is a voice of despair at one extreme and grandiosity at the other.  When we compare our sense of self with other selves, we might think that they are better off than us; they are more successful; they seem to be happier.  This makes us feel despair.  We also might think that we are better off than them; we see ourselves as more successful and comparatively happier.  This leads to feelings of grandiosity.  Both feelings – despair or grandiosity – lead to a sense of separation.

           

In reality, there is not much difference between grandiosity and despair.  As A Course in Miracles says in the section called “Grandeur Versus Grandiosity”:

“Grandiosity is always a cover for despair.  It is without hope because it is not real.  It is an attempt to counteract your littleness, based on the belief that the littleness is real.  Without this belief grandiosity is meaningless, and you could not possibly want it” (T-9.VIII.2.1-4).

It is because of our belief in our “littleness” and the despair that comes along with that belief that we then come up with grandiosity as an attempt to “counteract” it.  If we did not have this belief in littleness there would be no need for grandiosity.  The Course’s remedy for both littleness and grandiosity is “grandeur.”

“Grandeur is of God, and only of Him.  Therefore it is in you” (T-9.VIII.1.1-2).  We are God’s creation.  We have been imbued with the very grandeur of God.  The voice of the ego would have us forget this and believe in our littleness.  Because the belief in littleness is hard to swallow we cover it up with a belief in our grandiosity.  Both of these beliefs are a distortion of our true nature.  The truth is that we are grand.

“If you are willing to look upon your grandeur you cannot despair, and therefore you cannot want the ego.  Your grandeur is God's answer to the ego, because it is true.  Littleness and grandeur cannot coexist, nor is it possible for them to alternate.  Littleness and grandiosity can and must alternate, since both are untrue and are therefore on the same level” (T-9.VIII.6.2-5).

We will continue to alternate between littleness and grandiosity as long as we believe in them.  But, once we look upon our grandeur and accept it as the truth, the truth will overcome the lies of the ego.  We will no longer believe in littleness or grandiosity.  And, it is the ending of these beliefs that will allow us to see our essential oneness and equality with all others.  We are all equal in our grandeur.  We are all creations of God and are all imbued with His grandeur.  There are no exceptions.  The only difference is in our acceptance or rejection of this one truth.

Each and every one of us is the beloved of God.  When Jesus emerged from the water after his baptism by John, he heard the voice of God say, “You are my beloved Son.  With you I am well pleased.”  It is this that the Course calls “the Word of God.”  The two quotes at the beginning of this post also give us this “Word.”  I encourage you to contemplate the following from Lesson 106 of the Workbook of the Course for more on God’s Word.  The purpose of this lesson is to quiet the ego in you so that you can hear God’s Voice.  When you finish I encourage you to journal about the Word that you heard.

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Lesson 106:

Let me be still and listen to the truth.

If you will lay aside the ego's voice, however loudly it may seem to call; if you will not accept its petty gifts that give you nothing that you really want; if you will listen with an open mind, that has not told you what salvation is; then you will hear the mighty Voice of truth, quiet in power, strong in stillness, and completely certain in Its messages.

Listen, and hear your Father speak to you through His appointed Voice [the Holy Spirit], which silences the thunder of the meaningless, and shows the way to peace to those who cannot see.  Be still today and listen to the truth.  Be not deceived by voices of the dead, which tell you they have found the source of life and offer it to you for your belief.  Attend them not, but listen to the truth.

Be not afraid today to circumvent the voices of the world.  Walk lightly past their meaningless persuasion.  Hear them not.  Be still today and listen to the truth.  Go past all things which do not speak of Him Who holds your happiness within His Hand, held out to you in welcome and in love.  Hear only Him today, and do not wait to reach Him longer.  Hear one Voice today.

Today the promise of God's Word is kept.  Hear and be silent.  He would speak to you.  He comes with miracles a thousand times as happy and as wonderful as those you ever dreamed or wished for in your dreams.  His miracles are true.  They will not fade when dreaming ends.  They end the dream instead; and last forever, for they come from God to His dear Son, whose other name is you.  Prepare yourself for miracles today.  Today allow your Father's ancient pledge to you and all your brothers to be kept.

Back to the Beginning, Part 2

There are teachings within Buddhism and Christianity that speak of our inherent goodness.  They inform us that goodness is our very nature.  Therefore, in this view, any “evil” that we experience in ourselves is a distortion of our nature. 

           

Within the Buddhist teachings of Chögyam Trungpa Rinpoche we come across the concept of “basic goodness.”  This is the notion that human beings are fundamentally good.  Within this philosophical framework, problems and short-comings are seen as temporary and superficial defilements that cover over one’s basic goodness.  Therefore, these problems and shortcomings do not change our nature.  They are “temporary and superficial.”

           

This is very different from the Christian concept of “original sin.”  Original sin refers to the general condition of sinfulness (and the absence of holiness) into which all humans are thought to be born.  It presents our origin as “sinful.”  Many Christians believe that the doctrine of original sin is fundamental to the Christian path.  However, the doctrine was actually first articulated by Bishop Irenaeus in the 2^nd century.  It was later expanded upon by Augustine and, after a long and bitter struggle between various church fathers, the general principles of Augustine's teaching were confirmed within Western Christianity by many councils, especially the Second Council of Orange in 529.  Original sin, according to Augustine, consists of the guilt of Adam which all human beings inherit.  As sinners, we are utterly depraved and lack the freedom to do good.  Therefore, we can only be saved from our sinful nature by accepting that Jesus died for our sins – that his blood sacrifice is what will wash us clean.

           

However, the doctrine of original sin is not the only view of our origins within the Christian tradition and is not even the most fundamental view.  It is interesting to note that the Jewish tradition (from which the story of Adam and Eve originated) has no concept of original sin.  It is a concept that occurs only many years after the death of Jesus (who died a Jew, by the way) and was developed by various men within the evolving Catholic church.  Another doctrine that we can also see clearly throughout the Judeo-Christian tradition has been articulated very well by Matthew Fox.  He uses the term “original blessing” to define the condition of our creation by God.

           

When we read the account of creation in Genesis we notice the repetition of a phrase that occurs throughout the whole account – “it was good.”  It was good!  Our origin, according to the Judeo-Christian tradition is goodness, not sin.  Matthew Fox calls it a “blessing.”  In a sermon given at his church in Oklahoma City, Dr. Robin Meyers (author of Saving Jesus from the Church) said,

“Matthew Fox asked the obvious question:  Are we born bad and stay that way?  Or are we born good and forget where we came from, where we are going, and to Whom we belong?  Original Blessing puts the responsibility of remembering and embracing our goodness upon us.  But the alternative keeps us both helpless and childish which is exactly what religion does for lots of people.” (http://www.mayflowerucc.org/PrintedSermons/012410Meyers.pdf)

To believe in the doctrine of original sin is to remain “helpless and childish” – our only hope is to submit to the authority of the church and the saving power of Jesus’ blood.  To believe in the doctrine of original blessing is to make us responsible for “remembering and embracing our goodness.”  We are the ones who have forgotten the truth – the truth of our goodness.  We have forgotten “where we came from” – the very heart of God.  We have forgotten “where we are going” – back home to the heart of God (where we actually never left).  We have forgotten “to Whom we belong” – to God and not ourselves.

Our origin is a blessing, not a sin.  Our basic nature is goodness, not evil.  How do you imagine accepting blessing and goodness as our starting point would influence your self-concept and your relationships with others?  How is this different from accepting sin and evil as your starting point?   

Back to the Beginning, Part 1

Your creation by God is the only Foundation that cannot be shaken, because the light is in it.   Your starting point is truth, and you must return to your Beginning.  Much has been seen since then, but nothing has really happened.  Your Self is still in peace, even though your mind is in conflict.  You have not yet gone back far enough, and that is why you become so fearful.  As you approach the Beginning, you feel the fear of the destruction of your thought system upon you as if it were the fear of death.  There is no death, but there is a belief in death (A Course in Miracles: T-3.VII.5.5-11).

“The disciples said to Jesus, ‘Tell us, how will our end come?’  Jesus said, ‘Have you found the beginning then, that you are looking for the end?  You see, the end will be where the beginning is.  Congratulations to the one who stands at the beginning; that one will know the end and will not taste death’” (The Gospel of Thomas, Logion 18; Scholar’s Version).

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I have worked with many clients who view themselves as flawed, broken, unworthy, even evil.  They understand that they have good in them, but they see this good as warring with an equally strong evil.  For them God is at war with and in opposition to the devil, and their life is seen as the battleground.  Their life experiences have taught them they are “bad.”  Add to that a Christian theology of “original sin” that has been preached to them since they were a small child and the picture becomes bleak indeed.

How we answer the question of whether or not we are inherently good or evil will be determined by how we view our origins.  It is a question of fundamentals.  We will need to focus on our beginning – the “starting point” of our creation – in order to understand our essential nature.

In the preceding paragraph you will notice several words that are in italics.  These words, in one way or another, refer to our beginning.  A Course in Miracles often refers to our “inheritance.”  This is what we were given at our creation.  As we look at ourselves and the lives that we have been living, it might seem as if we are the prodigal son who has squandered our inheritance.   The truth is, however, that we cannot lose what God has given us.  If we could lose it then it was never really given to begin with.  What God gives to us is eternal. 

As long as we focus on what we have made of ourselves and on the particular circumstances of our birth and upbringing in this world, we will see a picture of limitation, pain, suffering, short-comings and countless mistakes – in a word, “sin.”  It will seem as if our inheritance has been wasted (the word “prodigal” means “wasteful”).  And, from the point of view of this world – the world as seen through our limited and false perception – it does appear that we have lost our way. 

           

However, if we can return to our beginning – to our creation by God – what will our experience of ourselves be?  Will we see the same picture?  The question we can ask ourselves is, “Does the spirit that God created have evil in it?”   

We might engage in evil actions in this world (“bodies behaving badly”).  There is no denying that this occurs in the world of form.  The question, though, is: “At the level of spirit – what we truly are – do we have evil in us?  Can a totally good God create a spirit that has evil in it?  If so, wouldn’t that imply that there is evil in God?”  The logic of the Course might go something like this:  God is only good.  God created us (the spirit) in His image and likeness (as an extension of Himself).  Therefore, the spirit that we are is only good.

That which is wholly good creates only that which is also wholly good – that which is love creates only love – that which is eternal creates only that which is also eternal.  If we experience anything else (either in ourselves or in the world) it must be a distortion of what God created.  God, who is perfect, pure, and good cannot create anything that is imperfect, impure, and bad.

“Your creation by God is the only Foundation that cannot be shaken, because the light is in it.   Your starting point is truth, and you must return to your Beginning” (T-3.VII.5.5-6).  Our creation by God is our Foundation.  It is what is fundamental.  Everything is built on this one Foundation.  And, it is a Foundation that nothing can shake – nothing we have done, nothing anyone can say, nothing we might believe about ourselves, nothing at all.  This is our starting point, and it is the truth.  Instead of focusing on who we have become, we need to return to our Beginning – our starting point – our Foundation. 

“Much has been seen since then, but nothing has really happened.  Your Self is still in peace, even though your mind is in conflict” (T-3.VII.5.7-8).  Through false perception we have seen much since our creation.  But, thankfully, nothing has really happened.  The separation from God and the rest of creation is just a “tiny mad idea.”  It never really happened.  Even though we still might perceive falsely and even though our minds seem to be in conflict, the Self that God created is still in peace.  The only lesson that is repeated in the Workbook of A Course in Miracles reads, “I am as God created me.”  The Self that God created has not changed and never will. 

“You have not yet gone back far enough, and that is why you become so fearful.  As you approach the Beginning, you feel the fear of the destruction of your thought system upon you as if it were the fear of death.  There is no death, but there is a belief in death” (T-3.VII.5.9-11).  When we think of our beginnings, we typically think about our birth and our early childhood experiences.  The Course is telling us that we have not gone back far enough.  We are instructed to return to the Beginning.  As we approach the Beginning – our Foundation – we will feel fear.  What we are afraid of is the destruction of the ego’s thought system and all that we think we are.  Because we identify with the ego (the false self that we have made) we believe that its death means our death.  In reality there is no death.  There is only the giving up of what is false for what is true.